Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Just for a moment.

It may seem like I am complaining a lot... Maybe I am, I hope to do better and be more positive -- I am trying! This last semester of school has just been tough. I am five weeks in, eleven to go. I am registered for seventeen credits, that's nine classes... Sometimes I feel like I'm just putting in my time when I sit in the classroom. I have to make a conscious effort to turn my brain on and pay attention. 

Now stay with me, I have a positive spin coming and I need to share. For my own sake. 

I am blessed. Yes, a cliché and sometimes overused phrase... But I am so blessed. 

Regarding school: I have the opportunity to study something I love! Music feeds my spirit. I am fortunate to have professors who believe I am worth the investment of time. I get to sing every day! I know the difference between expressionistic and impressionistic music, not to mention post romantic and late romantic... :P I am learning to orchestrate pieces from piano scores for orchestra and symphony. I know how to teach people to sing and am prepared to teach children musical building blocks. That is awesome.

Other blessings: It has been sunny for two weeks. I love the sunshine. It reminds me that I am loved, I'm not alone, and there will always be warmth and light somewhere - maybe it's just hiding. 

Jameson loves me! He really loves me, every day. I'll be honest - I have a hard time loving myself every day. I don't know how he does it. :) I definitely have my young adult woman mood swings, and he is so kind. He always helps me laugh and encourages me to not take things so seriously and to see the joy in the small things. He is my tallest blessing reaching 6'4". 

With the sun shining, it has reminded me to enjoy Pocatello. It isn't my favorite place I've lived, but it is a great community, we have beautiful hills and clean air. We won't be here for much longer, and we may never live somewhere with such great mountain biking or hiking again. 

I am resolving to enjoy where I am now. I enjoy Pocatello, and school, and I loooovvvvvvve Jameson (I always love him). I have much to be thankful for. 

When I was in High School I wrote a little mantra on a notebook of mine:
Smell the roses. Remember the honeysuckles. Enjoy the daffodils. 

This means more to me now than it did then. Don't rush through life and miss the beauty. Remember sweet moments. Some of my favorite moments only last a short season; don't forget to enjoy them. 

These blessings that feel like trials will last just for a moment. I will enjoy them and also the opportunity to learn and grow.

Life is good. Here's to remembering that truth. Now let's act. :)


Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Stream of Consciousness: My inner dialogue on Faith. Is it my priority?

     Hello readers. Do I have any readers? I will never really know. I believe my mom reads my blog. Thanks, Mom. and my sister. Thanks to you too, Mary.

     I have just entered week two of this Spring 2015 semester. So far, so good; my work load seems to be do-able. I have been struggling with prioritizing lately. Prioritizing my time and school work, church studies, family time, house work. Elder Scott recently taught in October General Conference, "Don’t yield to Satan’s lie that you don’t have time to study the scriptures. Choose to take time to study them. Feasting on the word of God each day is more important than sleep, school, work, television shows, video games, or social media." [You can read his complete talk, Make the Exercise of Faith Your First Priority, here.] Did you get that?? Feasting on the word of God is more important than SLEEP, SCHOOL, and WORK. That nearly knocked the wind out of me. While listening back in October, I realized that I am not making my faith a priority. I have been making sleep more important than Jesus Christ; sleep, work, and my studies. This was back in October; have I done much to improve? No, I don't think so. I believe I have still been putting off obedience. I have been neglecting to nurture my faith.

     I talked with one of my BFFs, Brooke, this morning. I shared with her that I was having my beginning of the school week freakout. I have one every first day back to school each week... yeah yeah, I know it's a waste of time and energy... She shared, "You know I have heard it really helps if you study the scriptures before homework. I've tried it and it seems to be helping." If I think about it, I've heard that too, from various friends and family members. And Elder Scott did say that scripture study is more important than sleep, school, and work. If I keep on feeling this anxiety over my priorities and time management, I need to make a change somewhere. I believe it would be worth it to put this suggestion to the test. So. I will. Here I write before you, anonymous readers, that I will read my scriptures before studying for school. Hear ye, hear ye! and I will return and report the results!

     Are you ready? I know I am. I will write back and let you know if it helps.

     {{{Spoiler allert! I'm pretty sure it will}}}
    
Happy Tuesday, everyone. :)

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Minnie Mouse experiencing the world!

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I had to get that off my chest.
Does anyone else get extreme anxiety during the beginning of the year???
I know I do. It literally makes my heart pound faster and the muscles in my chest tighten up.
So much to prepare for! The bright open spaces begin to dim and walls close down around me.

Welcome to the beginning of a new semester. You are the rat in the experiment, try to find the cheese and get out. If you get stuck in a corner, you're done. The end.

I am that rat. Lets say mouse. I like mice more.

New heavy semester, competition season for dance, senior recital, medical school interviews (for Jameson)...! I am the mouse and I need to navigate around these walls by scent. SCENT. I don't even smell things very well.

You know, I had a good talk with my cousin Monica yesterday... she suggested, "Well, why don't you choose to be excited? This is your last semester! What an adventure you will be taking!"
I think I should make her suggestion what I see and what I experience. I am on an adventure!
Instead of being a lab mouse, why can't I be Minnie Mouse?

Minnie Mouse experiencing the world! Three or more adventures at a time! How exciting!
I've never seen Minnie have to rely solely on her sense of smell.. this may just work. And I've got a partner, not Mickey; Jameson is more like a Mighty Duck. I think Minnie would go well with a Mighty Duck, one with a great sense of humor.

So wish us luck! My Mighty Duck and I are going to make the best of these adventures :)

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I can do it.
WE can do it. !
Thank heaven for Mighty Ducks.


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