Friday, August 19, 2011

Lessons I learned as a girl.

{Before I even go on... Just clarifying, I learn ALL my lessons as a girl... }

I just noticed... It's been forever since I last posted... which is probably fine, because I have a total of two (wonderful, beautiful, splendid) readers.
1. My mom.
2. My cat. (She learned by watching a program we ordered called "My cat can read.")
So, mom and kitty, I'm sorry it's been so long.

Summertime is coming to a close. Can you believe it? It's that time already. School starts on Monday. I'm a little nervous, I'll be honest, but I'm also looking forward to the adventure. This summer, I learned, and re-learned some valuable lessons... I'm happy to share a few...

>Quick recap!<
In May: I moved 30 minutes out of my home village to the town I'm attending school in, began a new job at a pet grooming salon, and... that's PRETTY much it. It's just been a new and exciting adventure. Almost like a quest, but not quite.

Back to my lessons...

I became painfully aware of a few of my weaknesses. One of them, is that I honestly have a hard time being social. When I put my mind to it, and make the choice to 'get out there' I usually have a great time, but I genuinely get nervous. My heart starts to pound, and I start to make up stories like, "Nobody really will notice if I'm there or not anyway... No one really longs to spend time with me or wants to know me." I forgot this about myself. I really feel anxiety when I'm about to be social. Weird. Recently, I was talking with my sweet Mother about this problem... and she put it all back into the right perspective. She lovingly suggested, "Becca, maybe it isn't about you at all..." She was one hundred percent correct. It isn't about me at all. There are so many other people who maybe just need someone to know their name. Maybe they just need to know that they've been noticed. That someone cares enough to share a smile with them across the room... It really isn't about me at all... and that makes me a lot less nervous. I am blessed to have remembered that lesson. Thanks, mom.

One more lesson... I know I promised a 'few' but it might just have to be a couple. I was able to learn.. how much my family means to me, and how much I love them. In my family, I have my Mom, Dad, my older sister Mary, Me, my younger sister Emma, and my big little brother, Benny. I remembered and noticed how grateful I am for...

Benny's laughter and unconditional love...
Emma's understanding and patience...
The way Mary seems to know me better than anyone else even when we've hardly had a chance to stay in touch...
The Savior, for His sacrifices on my behalf...
My Dad's love for me; his worthiness and his desire to be the BEST he can be, and that he's working so hard to to all he can for our family...
My mom's full heart and how unselfishly she shares every speck of it.
I'm also grateful for my grandma's consistent friendship, her giggles and the way she always knows just what to say...
and my other grandma, she's so willing to let me serve her and for the way she always says, "I love you, dear"...

This summer has been a doozy. I've been working hard in all areas of my life... physically, spiritually, socially, familyally, mentally, emotionally... It's been one of the most exciting roller coasters! I am blessed. I feel as if I've been sleeping all my life and am finally awake and aware of all that's been going on around me... I feel like one of the full coat dogs I groom... all of a sudden, all my fur is gone and I can feel the breeze on my tushy. Metaphorically speaking, of course. It's been an amazing adventure, and I am looking forward to what's next.

We are all so blessed.
Here's to a wonderful full challenging magnificent tear-jerking lesson-learning splendid beautiful summer...

3 comments:

Derek said...

Cool Blog Becca, I didn't know you were a blogger.. I used to be, I've gotta update mine.
www.thespinofilfe.blogspot.com
-Derek

Mary said...

I'm super offended that you didn't include me as one of your readers, but you did seem to think of Kitty! I'll have you know, I'm your biggest fan. Also, I miss you like crazy, and I love you more than ice cream. Also, you're a good writer. I laughed out loud.

mom said...

It's been forever, but I love reading your blog! When you're done with all that 'getting married' stuff I look forward to reading more of you. Thanks for sharing your lessons learned. :-) I love you!